The new life, without the wife!

Well im living a new life it seems now, i can positively say that i dont have to worry about my now officially "well as official as pre-divorce can be". Single since she now has started a family that she can love and grow and doesnt have to worry about falling out of love on a whime, cause she was suffocating every other month, but loving every other month. I dont really care anymore she can love her new boyfriend that is now her new babydaddy, he's tribal now she not only has a new man, but also she has a free ticket into the tribal money, so she's set for life now!

end of happiness

Today is the end of happiness, as the world goes to hell all i can wish is that it goes a little faster, and when the final judgement comes, that my son is raised to the heavens, and that i am left to rot on this plane of hell.

Today i have deleted my Myspace, my Facebook, and My myyearbook. I cant deal with pain and empty promises from people who have no further use in life, then to cause others momentary life, then un-ending pain.

If love to me was a word, it would not be found in my vocabulary because i dont want it in my life. The feeling has no place left in me.

i must try and keep my composure for my son. but my heart will return to its frozen state. I have not felt like this in years. This time i dont want it to thaw, that is my un ending wish!

I needs a college email address

Here's a sweet academic deal from Microsoft: Windows 7 is now available to college students for a mere $29.99 (originally $199.99). To qualify for this deal, you just need to be an enrolled student and have a valid college/university email address.

The offer ends January 3, 2010, at 12 A.M. CST, which should be plenty of time for even the worst procrastinators to jump on it. For more information, visit the Win 7 Web site.




Now this is quite unfair id love to get my hands on a cheap copy of windows 7 but i had just missed the dead line for the cheap pre-order, i like Vista and all but to have Vista running on Xp Reqs well that is all the better for me!

Divorce and feelings of loss and heartache

Just wondering how im going to feel once sarah and lucas have fully moved out, i know ill get to see him, but its gonna be weird coming home and there is no one to comfort me after a bad night, or playing with sarahs hair to help me fall asleep. Though its my fault that this has come to fruition, and yet i know it will happen, well is going to happen very soon, I just wish i had the power to stop it. Even though i did have the power to stop it and yet i still did nothing about it. i guess all i can hope is that it doesnt happen again, next time, if there is a next time!

Wenatchee Day 2

Well yesterday was a fun filled event of driving all over the place chasing just behind the wife and getting bad directions, like goto this address, but not know the name of the place im actually going to. I got to meet some of sarahs old friends, wow travel half way across a state and ya feel like your in high school again, the boyfriend of her best friend lives in a place that looks like it fell out of the Ghostbuster's movie, built in the 30's has an ancient elevator with the wood door, and accordian door inside, very cool, will upload a pic of it to myspace, under a new section i'll be starting called Strange and Unusual.

We are going to have a picnic this morning, at a park. I'm letting someone else find this place.

Witchy- This town is a lot like a mix of historic Mcminnville, and the beautiful town of Salem. It could grown on me except i cant be a security guard for the state of washington, i owe student loans, which is Bullshit!

Vacation

well im currently on vacation in Wenatchee, Washington. I'll be here until wednesday when the family heads back home, with a little lay over in tacoma for a deposition. more updates to come.

Hrrumph!

well just spent my usual half an hour checking for new stuff on the site i work at. Old Fairview in salem, and don't really see anything new, been conversing with and old friend and it seems that time has not changed her one bit, she's still stuck in the same rut she's always been stuck in and this time she is married to it. I really wish that she could see the real world and that she has so many more choices out there instead of what she sees just past her nose. Well only time will tell if she will see that she needs to change before her life will. Well off to bed for me with spring break fast approaching and the nights showing less signs of rain lots of sleep and hard work at night are coming. Cause i see a bad moon on the rise!

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