end of happiness

Today is the end of happiness, as the world goes to hell all i can wish is that it goes a little faster, and when the final judgement comes, that my son is raised to the heavens, and that i am left to rot on this plane of hell.

Today i have deleted my Myspace, my Facebook, and My myyearbook. I cant deal with pain and empty promises from people who have no further use in life, then to cause others momentary life, then un-ending pain.

If love to me was a word, it would not be found in my vocabulary because i dont want it in my life. The feeling has no place left in me.

i must try and keep my composure for my son. but my heart will return to its frozen state. I have not felt like this in years. This time i dont want it to thaw, that is my un ending wish!